love is

I feel like I'm shadowed by hazy stars above me.
And they're all shining bright for me.
I've seen days of chaos, winter rains that wouldn't leave.
But I came clean cause I believed.

I wanna find love and I wanna keep it.
I had it once but I didn't mind leaving it.
But I was younger then, and I learned everything alone.
Alone.

Love is an aeroplane. It can travel across the world.
And lift you high above, and still it'll never change.
Love is a gentle word, even when your pride is hurt.
Won't turn you away. Won't bring up yesterday.

Even though the days grow, longer by the minute.
I know there is hope in hope itself.
When I'm growing tired, and I feel faith is drifting.
I remember love is what I'm working toward.

Love is a heavy kiss when you don't deserve it.
It forgives, forgets, it never turns it’s back on you.
Love is an empty cup. It takes time to fill it up.
Even when you can't see it you can fill it lifting you.

Love is, love is, love is everything.
Love is, love is, love is everything.

i dont wanna...

give up. I will fight as hard as I can. I don't wanna quit. Because I believe that my problems is not bigger than my God. If He helps me, it means He wants me to have faith. But if He didn't, it means He trusted me. I believe that God has plan. God knows the best for me and for everyone :)

comment about "someday"

no, that day wont come!
i cant wait anymore. i have to stop this. i have to get a life. because something better is sbout to start over there. i believe :)

satu hal yg gue percaya

hai humbler. mau cerita nih. jadi baru-baru ini gue baca ulang buku nya  radit yang mmj. ceritanya tentang kehidupan cintanya radit. gue suka bgt sama buku itu soalnya banyak quotes simple tapi dalam, kayak:
"apa yg salah dari orang yg terlalu dalam sayang sama orang lain?"
"orang yang jatuh cinta diam-diam, pada akhirnya hanya bisa jatuh cinta sendirian"
"semua hal uda bergerak maju dengan kecepatan yg gak bisa gue prediksikan sebelumnya"
"entah kenapa, setelah 7 tahun, selai kacang di lidah gue, masih terasa hambar"
"kalo cinta bisa bikin rasa tai jadi rasa coklat, cinta yg gak terbalas bisa bikin rasa coklat jadi rasa tai"
"tapi gue inget. gue inget setiap detail yg terjadi malem itu"

quotes-quotes itu bener-bener dalem dengan bahasa yg simple. mmj nya radit bikin gue belajar banyak hal.
hal itu bikin gue sadar kalo kita nggak boleh terpaku sama satu orang aja. kita nggak bisa teru-terusan nunggu dan ngeharepin seseorang. kita harus mulai berhenti nunggu dan berhenti ngarepin hal yg uda gak mungkin.
kita nggak bisa egois, hanya mau sama orang yg kita sayang. kita nggak boleh nutup mata hati kita hanya untuk satu orang. terkadang kita harus buka mata, terus ngeliat siapa yg bener-bener ada di sekeliling kita dan mau nungguin kita. orang-orang yg mau nerima kekurangan kita apa adanya. orang-orang yg uda nungguin kita, dan gak pernah ngerasa capek.
gue emang nggak ngerti dengan konsep "jodoh". aneh banget kalo 1 orang manusia hanya ditakdirkan untuk 1 orang manusia jg. gimana sama mereka yg poligami/poliandri? apa mereka punya banyak jodoh? terus gimana sama mereka yang cerai? apa mereka salah jodoh? terus gimana bisa mereka nikah kalo pasangannya bukan jodoh mereka. terus gimana sama orang yg gak nikah? apa jodoh mereka nggak ada?
gue bener-bener nggak ngerti sama semua itu. yg gue ngerti, Tuhan uda nyiapin yg terbaik buat kita. dia tau apa yg kita butuh. dan kita juga harus berusaha.
lo harus yakin kalo suatu hari nanti lo bakal ketemu soulmate lo. dimana hanya dia satu-satunya org yg lo pikirin. hanya dia yg bisa bikin lo seneng. dan lo cuma mau sama dia terus. dan lo bakal ngelakuin apa aja hanya biar dia nggak ngerasa sedih. lo bakal ngerasa cocok dan ngerasa bisa saling ngelengkapin. dan rasanya semua perjalanan lo uda lengkap dengan hadirnya dia. dan lo berdua bisa mulai perjalanan baru. lo berdua bakal ngelaluin semuanya bareng-bareng.
gue yakin hari itu bakal dateng.

hello weekend :)

i've been expecting you since monday. then you're finally here. please be awesome and dont go so fast.

someday

that day will come.
the day when you realize my love. the day when you realize everything i've done.
the day when you willl love me back. the day when you adore me for the way i am.
the day when you care. and you want to be with me more than anything.
i'm waiting for that day :)
i had been, i am, and i will always waiting!

he was never in my vocabulary.

until one day he became the only word i know.

7 mei

2009 : gue bikin twitter
2010 : pengumuan kelulusan, 9c lulus semua
2011 : hari terbaik yang pernah gue alamin :)

they live but i can beat them!

i dont wanna let the monsters and ghosts inside me win! i will try my best to beat them and make the quiet. i will try to kill the monsters and ghosts inside me. i wanna make only Jesus live inside my heart. i wanna start a life with Jesus. God, please help me to be your child. help me to do things that make you happy.

percakapan di dalam kelas

patris : *nyanyi* aku ingin mempersuntingmu tuk yg pertama dan terakhiiir
gue : tunggu
patris : kenapa?
gue : kok lagunya gitu?
patris : lah emang kenapa?
gue : mempersunting itu bukannya ngehamilin anak orang ya?
patris & anggo : HAHAHAHAHAHA
anggo : ITU BUNTING, GOBLOK! HHAHAHAHA
patris : tin gue gak nyangka hahaha
gue : *dengan PDnya masih nanya* mempersunting itu apa dong?
patris : mempersunting itu ngelamar -_-"

kesimpulan: anak SMP emang labil